Met up wif PenguinElaine today.
Hoho, accompanied her to town to buy things. :D
It's great seeing her and giving her ideas on what to buy.
Miss penguins alot alot.
I shall see penguins tml, our date. :X

SIHUI, it's a pity that you can't come wif us cos of ur project.
I miss you ----------------------- this much! Hehs.

I love those little gestures/words my friends said to me.
haha, i feel good when my friends make me feel that im appreciated by them.
Esp ELAINE. rmb ytd what you told me when i wanted to go somewhere badly?
I feel soo touched at that time. LALALA.
Sometimes, the words they say or the efforts they gave can really touched one's heart, at least it touched mine! hehs. :D:D:D

I actually intend to go Halloween Specials at Night Safari on 1 nov, sat cos it's the last day.
but when i check out the price, i stunned.
Omgg, why so ex! >.<
nvm, next yr! I WILL GOOOOO.
I love seeing ghosts, but afraid.
K, damn contradicting. zz.

I din't study for maths test and i thought it's gonna be a gone case paper for me.

Laughters are antidotes to one's sadness. [:

The day starts off with AIR-LICE's jokes again.
I dunno why, everyday i go to school, everyday i laugh till my face like RED TOMATO.
Even if you're sad, i think by talking to my clique will make you laugh out loud.
Hahaa, I really enjoyed going to school now.

I used to dread school, feeling uncomfortable wif poly friends.
However, I love school now.
I still hate my modules but i feel that classmates are better than last sem.
Hehs, during my 2 hrs break today, I played old school card games wif some of my classmates.

Not just normal card games like poker etc.. it's OLD MAID, DONKEY, SNAP and HAPPY FAMILY. HAHAHA! =D

Okay, it brought back many many happy memories. awww.

K, got maths test tmr. CIAOS!~

OHHHH BEFORE I FORGET, MY COUSIN GAVE BIRTH TO 2 LITTLE TWINS(BOYS) TODAY.
SO I HAVE ANOTHER 2 BABY NEPHEWS. (:
awww, i got like 5 nieces in total and 3 nephews?
omgg, olddddd. :(

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, CHELSEA! :D
you will never get to read my blog i guess.
anyway, we might not be close now cos we've our own good friends.
But.. I still miss all those silly things we did during sec 1 and 2. [:
Loves.

Played viwawa in the afternoon followed by Hotel626.
Omgg, i reserved a room and went in to play when the clock strikes 6pm.
Shit sia, first round was alright.
The second round damn scary siol.
I love playing horror games and watching horror movies but Im scared at the same time.
zzzz, timid bahs. >.<"
I screamed in the middle of the game and i closed the window when the game reaches the 5th round. I kept losing lahs. =(

I dont dare to play that game anymore. Stupid female ghost scares me.
Sarah's gonna laugh at me anytime, cos i told her im only hiding behind the comp screen and its fake ghost. YET, IM SOOO SOOO SCARED. =(

oh dear, i think i can't sleep tonight. shit.

Treasure the ones that you love and the ones who love you. [:

Busy training viwawa these two days. :D
I go school = stay at home because i will only pay 10% attention and another 90% will be facing my laptop and playing viwawa at the same time. Lols and teachers know.
Hahaha, this is so gonna stop if not i sure repeat modules. =(

I liked the post that Alice post in her blog.
Totally agree. :D
I show you all. Hehs.

因为爱过，所以不会成敌人；因为伤过，所以不会做朋友。 　

如果，前世的五百次回眸才换来今生的擦肩而过，那想来已经很幸福了――其实，擦肩而过，也是一种很深的缘分。佛说：五百次的回眸才能换来今生的擦肩而过。可以一秒钟遇到一个人，一分钟认识一个人，一个小时喜欢上一个人，一天时间爱上一个人，但是却要用一辈子去忘记一个人。

当他不爱你的时候，无论过去他是否爱过还是后来忘了，又或者是从未爱过，当你无法再成为他心里的那个人的时候，他的心便不会记得你。请不要在你不开心时去打搅他，他那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。请不要与他讲你的琐事，他无暇更是没有兴趣去了解你、你的生活。即使讲了，他也很快会忘记的。没有爱，你注定挤不进他的生命。请不要在他的面前流眼泪，他无法给予你照顾和关心，至多只是一点同情。只有爱你的人，才会真正的去珍惜你，而不是，旁观的同情和怜悯。 　

　当他不爱你的时候，你的爱便是他的负担。请不要去计算自己的付出，不要希望有什么回报。你用心，他无心，爱着不爱自己的人，本身便是没有回报的。不要计较对与错，这样会快乐些。请不要失去自信，因为爱一个人，并非他的优秀，而只是一种感觉。他让你有这样的感觉，于是你爱他。同样，他不爱你，也并非你不优秀。优秀，不是爱的理由。还有那么多爱自己的人，淡淡地微笑一下，也是异样甜美的。 　

　当他不爱你的时候，也一定要祝福他。有了爱，便不该有恨，因为曾经有爱，有爱的日子里是快乐的，有缘在一起也是快乐，有过快乐有过爱，就不会再有恨。他失去的是一个爱他的人，而你失去了一个不爱你的人，却得到了一个重新生活、重新去爱的机会。请你深深呼吸，一生的路上，铺满了爱的花蕾，总有那么一朵属于你，花儿虽多，却没有重复的一朵，这是生生世世早已经注定的。 　

　 当他不爱你的时候，就是你从他生活中消失的时候，第一时间离开他，骄傲地过属于自己的生活。同时，你也希望他能幸福快乐，找到属于他的未来。轻轻拥抱一下回忆里的温暖，轻柔地凝视凋谢的温柔。无论结果怎样都会破坏了曾经的美感。干干净净地离开，也许若干年后的某个午后，阳光下的他眯起双眼会记起某个美好的瞬间，会心一笑。种种怀念，值了。 　　爱不一定要永远。曾经拥有的也许会是你一生最美好的回忆。因为爱过，所以不会成敌人；因为伤过，所以不会做朋友；只能是最熟悉的陌生人。爱过知情重，醉过知酒浓。关于爱的记忆，应该好好收藏，只是今后的幸福，要各自去寻找。

　　爱是一种感觉，不爱也是一种感觉，而往往难以抉择的是心中的感觉到底是爱还是不爱。原来握在手里的，不一定就是你们真正拥有的；你们所拥有的，也不一定就是你们真正铭刻在心的。人生很多时候需要自觉的放弃，因为拥有的时候，你们也许正在失去，而放弃的时候，你们也许又在重新获得。 　　

明白的人懂得放弃，真情的人懂得牺牲，幸福的人懂得超脱。对不爱自己的人，最需要的是理解、放弃和祝福。过多的自作多情是在乞求对方的施舍。爱与被爱，都是让人幸福的事情。不要让这些变成痛苦。既然你们已经经历了，多年以后，偶尔想起，希望都是美好的回忆。活的自信些，开心些，把最美的微笑留给伤你最深的人，聪明的人知道自己要快乐。

I was filled wif emotions when i was reading this post in Alice's blog.

爱 如果一切重来
爱 如果失去了伤害
再重来 会有什么精彩
还有什么值得期待
已过去的未来
再重来
难道不会失败
若失去跌倒的痛快
前进的方向还存不存在

In forever memory of my dear friend, Danil Shargimadanov. ( 24.10.90-24.10.06)

It's been 2 years since he left us for lord.
I miss you, my friend.

It's his birthday today too.
I remembered i got this shocking news from one of my classmate, she told me he passed away when it was the day when we are getting back our results.
& i thought it was a joke.
Till, school broke out the news to us then i knew it was a fact.
It strikes me so hard to accept the truth that one of my classmate passed away on his birthday.

never be forgotten. (:

What makes me extremely happy? [：

Received my belated birthday present from poly clique yesterday.

This is Cindy (: (ME)

omgggg, i looked distorted here. AHHHHH. =(

nvm,im gonna laugh my ass out. :X

K, till the next post, stay tuned! :D

No emo-ness these few days. yeah! (:

Love takes time & I love PENGUINS ;P

I'm in a tomorrow's payday kind of mood. [:

Okay, i'm gonna sleep soon wifout eating dinner. :D

Trained down to Chinatown to attend my erhu lesson.
I find myself getting rusty after 6 months of not touching it.
It's good that my teacher is exerting much stress on me and yes, he said i've improved.
Hahaha. :D

Have been listening to Jay's new songs!
thumbs up for his songs man! =D
All very nice and emotional.

I wonder when is Show Luo's next concert.
I wanna go! :D
Im attracted by his vocals and dance moves. [:

Friday, a day when i can rest [:

School starts at 8 today.
Dragged myself off the bed at 6 and met clique at yck mrt station at 730.
I felt like im a walking zombie, dozing off anytime during lectures. Lols. :D
Im soo proud of myself today cos i din't sleep during lessons/lectures.
I don't pay 100% attention but i would say at least a 30% today. :p

I want to get into director's list this sem. :(
I'll try although i know nuts about IT. (:

Mum's being damn random.
She came into my study room and asked if i got a bf now.
Lols! :D Stunned for 3.75s and answered :" No, what makes you think so?"
She asked again to confirm. She very sensitive & i got her genes.
Libra-s are damn sensitive, pessimistic, easily jealous and stubborn.
Yes, i agree. :D

Im damn sleepy now, can feel my battery getting flat soon. :(
I need to catch some sleep and enjoy my life these two days before mon.
From mon onwards, i have to bring lappy everyday. =(
sooo heavy, sooo troublesome, soooo lazy. Hahaha. :X

aching to hear you laugh.

Dance to a happy song wif me [:

hehs. Okay, today was very well spent although some nice moments are ruined by the pouring rain. Class was alright today, mostly lectures so i just do my own things instead of listening to teachers. Yeahs, even if i listen, i don't get it into my head. :D

I had an equiz today and as im so lazy to even read the notes, i plainly copied the answers from clique and yes, i passed! Hoho, good good. Thanks. [:
A total of 5 hours spent in school, i think i used 4 hours for laughing.
I dunno what got into me today, i went haywire.
It's been quite sometime since i laughed until my face like tomato and my face actually cramps a little. Hahaa, i think i used more muscles for laughing than frowning.
HAHAHA, got reason laa. Alice did not come school today and due to missing her just a little bit, i remembered her funny words like : " Lame, she pronounced as Lamb", " Love as Laugh".
Its super funny, & we joked only laa.

She knows it. & i mean no harm girl. =D
Wifout her in our clique, it feels so different.
why din't you come?!!!!!!!! >.<

Ended class at 150, took train then changed bus to broadrick there to eat wif Shuting.
It's been a while since i last ate the food there wif my dearests.
I missed the hawker food, the times we penguins ate together...
I missed the times when im still a student in broadrick and still running around like some silly kid. HAHHAHAHA, all in the past. :(
I missed the fish meat bee hoon(my fav) and yes, i ate it today together wif sugarcane juice with lemon. (:
Went over to meet Sihui after eating, and Shuting accompany me to meet my friend before she went home.
That's nice of her, thanks babe! (:
Played 10 mins of basketball and then it starts to rain.
So sat at a corner to chit chat till 5.
ohhh, & the ball hit my lips when i was playing and it bleeds.
awww. Im scared of blood & i know i will faint if i see the amount of blood flowing out so i wiped off wif tissue and throw it away.
Vision was blur and after awhile its okay. Hehs. (:
I can't be nurse or doc next time. Lols.
Sihui, let's play again next time.
I din't really perspire much. :(

Im very happy today cos friends and Haagen-Dazs's Rum&Raisin ice cream made my day. (:
aww. I like the ice cream. :D

Looked forward to tmr cos it's friday!
I'll say TGIF. Haha.
Lastly,
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, EMERLYN ! :D
enjoy yourself okay. [:

Today's the 2nd day of sem 2 and yet i feel so tired, dread of going to school, etc.

I miss my best!

I miss my dearest penguins! MISS ME BOH? (:

I lost my one of my love. =(

Yes, my fighting fish that i've been taking care of for 3 yrs has left me today.
Last two days it suffered from some internal disease caused by the food it ate.
Thus, on sunday, i rushed down to Dhoby Ghaut to buy some treatment for her as well as the food. Sadly, i already kinda expected she can't make it cos it was too painful for her.
The way she swims is actually a signal already. =(
Im alr used to it's presence in my house, now that she left me, i don't think i will ever own another one so soon.

Forever living in my memory, babiie. (her name).
Okay, don't laugh! >.<

School was alright today.
Im so lucky to have Yibei as company for my elective laa!
Cos my teacher release damn early.
The lesson was supposed to be 2 hrs, but she let us go 1/2 hr later. >.<
If wifout Bei, i think i can roam around NYP already.
Hahaa, totally waste of time going school sia.
& i think im too hyper today. A bit unusual. Lols. :D

I have 2 hrs break and then, its a very boring module again.
Database Fundamentals, shit module. Hahaa. :D
Frankly speaking, my teacher is damn boring.
I nearly fall asleep. Lols.
Please let tomorrow's modules be a little bit nicer. :p
I'll be having a 4 hr long break tmr!

Im suffering from insomia recently.
Ytd i only slept for 1 hr plus. :(
Dead tired. (;

A Very Lame Quiz :
The 1st person who tag/pass you is?
- Loh Shu Ting a.k.a Shooting :P

2. your relationship with him/her?
- One of my good friends in poly. :D

3. Your five impression of him/her?
1) Quiet at first sight
2) Anti-social HAHAHA. ( better admit hor!)
3) Kind at times
4) Sweet
5) Noisy at times. Lols! :D

4.the most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Specially cook small snacks and buy me stuffs when she went overseas.

5. the most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
- She said she miss me during holidays. She this kind of person seldom say these things one. Lols! ( she sure kills me if she sees this :P)

6. you got any wish or request to ask from him/her?
-Let's go HongKong/Taiwan next yr okays with the rest!
- Mahjong session!
-Prawning date
-Steamboat

7. as a friend, what he/she has to improve on?
- Nothing. Just be Loh Shu Ting. =)

8. if he/she became your enemy, you will?
- Try to get her back as a friend

. 9. if he/she became your enemy, the reason will be?
- stupid reasons.

10. the most desired thing you want to do for him/her is?
-I think she need a tight slap. [ inside joke]

11. your overall impression of him/her is?
-A good friend that will be there anytime. :D

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
I know!
Demanding at times
Stubborn
Fun-loving ( HAHAHA gonna kill me!)
Talkative
Sociable.
the rest ask them. :D

13. the characters you love of yourself are?
-Sociable, Fun, Caring, good listening ear. =)

14. on the contrary, the character you hate yourself are?
- Dunno how to comfort people, demanding at times. Ahhh. :(

15. the most ideal person you want to be is?
Myself. :D

16. for people who care and like you, say something to them.
-So sweet ahh. AWWWWWWWW, love you all back! :X

17. Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you .
1) Xiaohui
2) Sarah
3) Sihui
4) Elaine
5) Yvonne
6)Eliza
7) Sophie
8) Iris
9) Jiaqi
10) Amanda Lim

18. Who is no.6 having a relationship with?
- Currently, Single.

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
-Female.

If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? -
They don't even know each other!

21. What is no. 2 studying about?
- integrated facility design & management

22. When was the last time you had a chat
- Now?

23. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
- Chinese one. S.H.E, Fish Leong and etc. (:

24. Does no. 1 has any siblings?
- Yes, A younger Bro

25. Will you woo no.3?
- No need, she alr my honeyy. :D ( Im not les, just playing one :D )

26. How about no.7?
- No.

27. Is no.4 Single?
- Yes.

28. What is the surname of no.5?
- Wah.

29. What's the hobby of no.10?
- Dance, Baking & listening music.

30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?
- Okay laa, classmates.

31. Where is no.2 studying at?
- Temasek Poly. :D

32. Talk something casually about no. 1.
- My always Steady, Lovely Best! :P

33. Where does no.9 live at?
- Kallang Bahru.

34. What colour does no. 4 like?
- Purple! :D

35. Are no.5 and no.1 best friend?
- No! Number 1 is my best! & they don't know each other.

36. Does no.1 have any pets?
- Nope.

37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
- Def, in her own ways. (:

38. What is no. 6 doing now?
- Outside maybe, she's not online. Lols.

wahh, finally finish this quiz. Best, penguins and friends, do this! :D

2 More days before school reopens! =(
13 0ct is going to mark a stop to my holidays and a start to projects, lectures and tutorials.
Im still in my gonna shop till i drop, then shop again kinda mood.
Hahaha. :D
I've printed out my timetable and realised my timetable was kinda FANTASTIC.
As in really way better than last semester! (:
Although every monday, wednesday and friday school starts at 8, but it ends quite early!
I end school at 150 on Monday and Thursday.
As for Wednesday, i end school at 250. (:
Friday is 4pm and tues is 6.
I hate tuesday's lesson.
Lessons start from 1010-6.
School hours are soo long, maybe i'll fall asleep or tap card and run.
Like how i always did. Hees. * smiles to myself *

Im damn worried im not able to attend school on every wednesday.
Haha. Cos i won't be able to wake up on time.
Sunday i can sleep early so sure can wake up.
Friday is becos next day is saturday, so forced myself go school.
But wednesday, nothing motivates me leh. Lols! :p

Nvm, Bear wif school for 2 months and Dec holidays will come soon! :D
*Pray hard that my new lecturers are nice people unlike last sem *
Haha. [:
& im super glad that Yibei is in same elective as me.
Then i won't be alone. :D

Okay, cooled down after i had my Korean claypot ramen for dinner. [:
alot of late posts to update.

I'll blog full details tmr.
Blood boiling. :X
Guess i'll explode if i blog now.

Seeing them like this really hurts me alot.
The arguements they had over the phone was so damn clear to me.
I know what was going on, what was happening, yet i can't do anything.
I don't know how to console my mum or how to ask dad what's wrong, the only thing i can do is do my own things.
I don't wish to see my mum crying, my heart can't take it.
If i see her cry, i'll cry too.
I don't know who is right and who is wrong, i don't know what's the truth.
All i know is i believe in my daddy & i understand the pain my mum is going through.

The pain of having to suspect your husband is cheating on you is terrible.
why would people see him with a girl?
omgg, what shit. :(
The fear i had within me is acting up again.
This isn't the first time alr.
It happened before & back then, i was only 12 yrs old.
I hated the feeling & now, it's back.


ahhhhhhhhhh, just leave me alone.
I feel like i've no one to talk to, even if i talked to them, will they understand?

On the other hand, Alice came back from China and yes, she passed her exam!
Yeah, so happy that she's back.
I said i dont like MICs, but she's an exception. Lols. [:
A different one indeed. Hahaa.
Im meeting poly friends tomorrow!
Yeahness, so long never see them alr.
We used to say one week meet one time, but now we meet once in the holidays.

Okay, pictures up tmr! Today no mood.
& on thurs, im so gonna enjoy myself to the max wif my sec sch class ppl.
Before sch reopens, im gonna enjoy myself to the maximum.
Cos i know when school starts, i will have things on and less time to hang out alr. :(

I miss dance friends.

Joy, fun and laughters [:

3rd Oct-

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY CHANEL; NEL :D

may all your wishes come true and hope you enjoyed the outing last friday[:

Get well soon, my dear.

5th Oct-

Met Sarah at Plaza Sing at 2pm and yes, she went out wif my mum and I.

Lols. I thought my mum wouldn't like friends to meet up with me on weekends cos weekends are supposed to be my family day.

Hahaa, but she did agree wif A SMILE.

& i don't know what got into her cos her mood was fantastic.

It's been ages since i last had Aijisen wif her so i asked and she was fine wif it.

Wow, coolness. I love my mum being this way.

When she's in bad mood, she's really bad.

& i was still able to shop at Cotton on again( diff outlet) and she paid for my shopping expenses.

Hees, thankyou. [:

We even watched " Painted Skin ". Lols, what a nice day.

But till now, Cindy still got curfew.

She came my house after that and she left at 2130. (:

Seize the day. [: