Does releasing balloons help to let go one's grief?

Went Dover Park Hospice wif Mummy yesterday for the Rose for remembrance day.
When i stepped into that hospice once again, i wanna cry badly.
Two of my beloved ones passed away in that hospice.
I miss my grandpa and grandma badly.
Esp my grandma. =(
I missed the times when she used to dote on me wif gifts,showered me wif unconditional love and treat me differently from others.
It's been 5 yrs since she left me but i din't forgot her.
She always stand a special place in my heart.
We cry for the ones that we love, isnt it?
I love her, so much so that whenever her images flashed thru my mind, i will cry and hide myself in my own room.

I don't think releasing balloons help.
Cos i tried and yet i can't let go.
Till now, i still believe she is wif me, all along. :D

Turning the pages of old photographs
I whisper thanks to each and every one
Deep in my heart you have come, come to live
Sure as the sun to see me through

Come rain or shine however the day may be
You shelter me with your smile
How far your memories may fade
Traces of you i hope to find
in each event, and i drown in my own tears

I wish on a star, the first star of the night
you'll find me here every evening of the year
As twilight approaches i look to the sky
Searching for you wif all of my heart

In grief and joy I long for you and your smile
Remembering the things we used to do
I'll always have a place for you in my heart
I do believe somewhere in time
I do believe, i will see you once again

Come rain or shine however the day may be
You shelter me wif your smile
And as each memory of you comes to mind,
I cry, laugh and treasure the time that we shared.

You have a special place in my heart.
All of my days, your memory will live on.

Although im alone,
but im never lonely for i know, you will be there shining for me brightly.